今晚

坐在电脑桌前，看着外头的风景

今晚的心情一点都不好过

一种叫做疲惫的感觉在霎那间出现了

我怎么了。。。体谅在那儿？？？

心平气和在那儿？？？？

霎那间我很想呐喊。。。。把那一口气给发泄出来

我真的不知自己怎么了。。。。

最近做什么事情都很不顺。。。

运气去了那儿？？？？

week 3 of my U life

want to back my home sweet home

but because of my case study cant finish so choose stay at here

this semester timetable of friday is not perfect due to need held class until 7pm

4 year time in mmu that this semester timetable need to 7pm of fri is first time

i already one more month no back to hometown

if back on sat travel time already half day then sun need come back again that is total equal to waste my time to travel after there cant do anything

miss home sweet home so much !!!!!

经昨晚

昨晚看到信息内容或许我应该生气

可惜我并没有

原来多年以后我真的学会了如何放开你的在乎

当初你松开了双手让我知道在你心中我是那么的不起眼

等待三年的疲惫在昨晚我彻底醒悟原来我可以做到彻底放开你的在乎

你问我到底发生什么事情~

为何态度如此冷淡~ 曾经我的关心让你觉得是种负担~

如今你问我为何会漠不关心

我问了你我该拿什么资格去关心你在乎你~ 你给不到我答案

时间可以改变一个人的想法~ 特别是三年的时光

你高估你自己我会一直守下去~~~~~~~~

我知道你每年在这个时候总是会来打扰我

因为我的生日到来，但想说每年的这个时刻到来

我就很讨厌你~ 想起过去你对我许下的承诺没有一个实现过

渐渐的我明白在你心中我只不过是一个无关紧要的人~~

今年的到来你的问候到来我知道我真的彻底累了~~~~~~

new semester

hopefully my last subject clashing timetable can be readjust

if can be do it that is means this semester is my final semester i should go through after 5 years

5 years like that give me a lot chances to look different things and peoples

should i glad happy with that ----- answer is yes

last semester result is expected ----- but is good and wonderful present i collected by myself

second wonderful present i gain it is from my practical audit firm ----- ho ho ho ,out of expectation salary i received it at last my boss said to me : treat the amount as whatever....

before the birthday coming around i created two wonderful presents present for myself now third i hope i can added with the last subject then let me shun shun li li end my degree course

seriously say by heart this time semester holiday back sit at living room talk v my grandma and dad on the moment i realize this few years they all really older

my grandma past few years didnt have any white hair this few years i saw a lot already on her hair

my dad side, look at on him he look old all the image he young suddenly all been destroy, his healthy got a bit problem after one year ago operation .

so that i hope i can faster graduate to fulfill them a wish that 4 years ago we promise each other hope i can make it to them after my graduate and get job settle down everything

what about my coming birthday wish i should make it ?

each time every year come around this moment , you sure will come and ask me

hope still same with last year

but this year i hope is new for myself after go through a lot of things and out of expected problems

what should i go through i think already pass by .... i hope i can a rest let myself to new environment

three year later for the wait already enough time for myself to wait somebody.... he give me a message asking me where i will go after graduated

at last he know i am graduated soon but for the relationship i feel really tired .... so no plan yet most will stay at Malaysia .....

three year later, my opinion change a lot of .... i know that if the person really care for you he will not let you wait for him three years time

but only i am stupid really wait it and hope a miracle will out.... so sorry three years timing miracle no appear but let me know a lot of thing

i know that this kind of relationship is not me are looking for ... because if i beat down all the monster between you and me .... on him side still have problems

can be said i really try until so tired .... i hope i can grow old with you... but in fact i cant see any your afford to want keep this relationship ....

timing i give for both of us is three years .... is too short for you to change .... i dont know.... if like that what should i do it .... only let you go!!!