a called from you

yesterday night a called from you

i know a thing is we are still same.... waiting

this waiting at last will become how i dont know

is new hope for us i dont know...

this time i clearly know what you want so i only keep queit again

cant given you respond some more....

one day i will lost you but now i only want say thanks to you

reason is you give me a shortly sweet memories

you wont know i aslo wont tell you how appreciate this shortly memories

i scare i given you hope at last spoil it so keep like that maybe is good for us

now for me is happiness beside me but i am still consider and think and think

what i think, what i scare, what and what in my mind... only i know but you told me you know maybe you know so until today you still dont want rush to get answer from me

you know about all my feel, my think, my scare and maybe you know about all let me scare more and more

in front you i cant prevent i dont care everything that is we know each other clearly and deeply so that is me consider it

you said you know exactly you really know ........ maybe you guess correct half

after yesterday called i know now we are starting our busy life, so you need to take care yourself !!

we are care each other but between us have my problem to settle 1st....

after holiday.... 1st weekend at cyber

this smester back i realised a lot of thing at here already change

time is objectively but something already change living here

maybe a lot of friends here already find their target of life

what should do, what should achieve, what should go ahead for next step for futute

all friends at here already set up their target for their next step what should do i am not be excluded too.... i am one of their member... haha

this week is i am 1st week stayed at here for weekend .... reason is i have assignment need to rush so i cant back to my home sweet home....

today i admit without you beside me i feel very weird again....dont know why, this feeling appeared very long time ago until today still like that

you still have the power to influence me some more.... i dont know why will become like

after yesterday night message i know i still care about you.... care about what words you told me but time is objectively i cant let something return....

what shall i do beween you and me .... three words...." i dont know"... my best friend told me only me persist my position i will see different life some more... she say truely too.... i understand too...

everyone have own happiness account, this account will gain how much happiness that is see on own how to treat it .... i believe myself can gain a lot of happiness for myself but i still need more and more time

now i know still unsuitable for me to gain my happiness becuase i need settle some personal thing 1st...

after settled down all my personal thing, new journey of my happiness just will start that time you will see a different person stand in front you....

how to balance it ?

i ask myself long time ago

how i need balance my life between you and me

i try and try but dont know why like got something block off between you and me

like a mountain that we cant climb over the problem between you and me

is it really we need more time to overcome all happend between you and me

we believe dont care how high the mountain we can climb over it but this time only you alone try your best i still dont know how to over it ..... surely is my problem, i admit it

if life can come again i really hope all people that was hurt me dont let me met them and people care for me dont let me meet again then my life is will become normal wont let people disturd....

what will be between you and me? happy ending story ? i dont think so because i not the luckly girl can belong this kind happiness....

between you and me actually still a lot of problem need to overcome it .... haih!!!

how best we try we dont know.... i cant promise but time will prove between you and me ...

hope i can back next week because i starting busy my assignment life.... some more mid term exam coming soon... my hell U life come again....

多少人可以理解呢？

人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。

如果你不给自己烦恼，别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。

因为你自己的内心，你放不下。

好好的管教自己，不要管别人。

你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。

每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。

当你烦恼的时候，你就要告诉你自己，这一切都會過去的，

你烦恼什么？根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，

如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？

忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。

忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。

永远不要浪费你的一分一秒，去想任何你不喜欢的人。

得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，

那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。

当有一天，你深入了解后，你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。

这个世间只有圆滑，没有圆满的。不要刻意去猜测他人的想法，

如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断，通常都会有错误的。

要感谢告诉你缺点的人。

时间总会过去的，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！

不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，

也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。

感谢上苍我所拥有的，感谢上苍我所没有的。

当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，

如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。

人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。

如果你能够平平安安的渡过一天，那就是一种福气了。

多少人在今天已经见不到明天的太阳，

多少人在今天已经成了残废，

多少人在今天已经失去了自由，

多少人在今天已经家破人亡。

恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中，

不管他有多坏，有多恶。

你愈骂他，你的心就被污染了，你要想，他就是你的善知识。

你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，

他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫

世界原本就不是属于你，因此你用不着抛弃，要抛弃的是一切的执著。

万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。

学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。

成熟的人不问过去；聪明的人不问现在；豁达的人不问未来。

发光并非太阳的专利，你也可以发光。

你可以用爱得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界。

人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。

你今天在MSN的status所写的让我明白你已经不值得再让我尊敬

我也没有力气再与你辨什么因为不值得了，

你也不需要这样诅咒亏你还读那么多书

出门去别告诉你是马大教育系毕业生。。。

就好不要再来犯我否则多大生也是不是好惹的

你只是马大生我比你大因为我是多大生。。。

有时做人当别人给一寸你要进一尺

只是让人不懂要如何尊敬你。。。

静静的

直到现在我才明白什么是甜蜜的时光

欢乐的岁月是一家人健健康康的生活在一起

幸福的岁月是喜欢的人不一定要拥有只是静静的为他守着到有天他来告诉我他找到了新的幸福才松开我的手让他带着属于他的幸福往前走。。。不是苯而是另一种爱的方式！！

开心的岁月是一整群朋友疯到忘了时间直到家里的人打电话通知现在是几点了怎么还没回家这时才会发现原来已经夜深了

友谊的岁月是当我感到无助的时候找他的时候他会给于我支持和鼓励教我该如何做只是最近都遇上好多问题都不敢常常去烦他，因为我需要再学会如何去应付难题。。。

静静的坐在客厅无人的时候我才明白到什么是父亲常常对我说的甜蜜时光，其实这些快乐的时光一直都在我的身边只是看我如何去看待。。。。在难题中其实也可以享受到快乐的时光。。。

静静的我也越来越多东西不在去强求凡是量力而为就像我与他之间的一个谜底，这个谜底的结果是什么我与他都想知只是我们还需要一点点时间静静的感受

结果会是如何就得看我们之间的缘分是来得早还是出现迟了。。。。他告诉我幸福是掌握在自己手中的一条命运线，只要耐心再等一次在努力一次这个命运线将会是属于我的。。。。但是无论我怎么做依然还是摆脱不了过去的那些噩梦。。。。

害怕会再面对一样的结果。。。。人一旦看多了事情的利与弊做什么事都会有所顾虑了，也许我现在就是如此吧。。。

一朵花开得多美丽始终都会凋谢的一天，我的感情故事告诉总是告诉我像极了花无百日红，总是在想定下的时候问题总是出现，这时故事又在凋谢一次。。。。

现在想找个可以一起同甘共苦的人根本机会等于是0.01%了，全部都是大难临头各自飞了。。。

他要我慢慢去争取这段幸福的手中线，但我却是害怕自己会再受伤所以还是不敢跨越另一步了。。。时间还是需要我慢慢的往前走了。。。。

thanks to god

worries whole day for my aunt

now i just finished class then called my cousin ask him how about my aunt

glad happy and happy becuase the operation was successful

after got news about her had tumour whole family is worries about her

thanks god of belessing my aunt

now hope the result of tumour is benign then everything will be ended

in single family growing up i met a lot of problem in past so when get news about my family member who had sickness i really scare that another family will incomplete again so i only pray and pray for them

whatever now for my aunt family is happy after this operation have been successful even doctor said chance was 50% for success...

thanks

worries

after something happend again

i very worries and worries

at last still need myself to face and handle

i still believe myself can do and solve

this week i went back again to my hometown

reason is i told myself when i free that is place i need always back

something happend again i know that family how important for me

this time back i saw my grandma situation still not improve

i am so worries about her hope i still have time to help her complete her wishes

this tuesday is my aunt operation day

after settled this problem next is my aunt arrange for my grandma start her treatment

after that my dad problem settled that all the problem 2008 will be end

my family will get ready for 2009 .... unhappy, sad, bad luck, sickness will be ended in 2008!!!

成语篇

要是没有这个决定

自己就不会受了那么多的冤枉气

朋友说是我自己自讨霉趣鲁

现在我才明白有时做好人只是给人欺负的份

为什么次次无辜的那人是我好心被人欺

妈妈的一句话“忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天口”

到底是对还是错了呢？

近来我学会的成语一次可以用上

1）狗咬吕栋兵不知好人心

2) 欺善怕恶

3）铁石心肠

4）鸭子吃黄连有苦说不出

但是爸爸说的一句“人不为己天诛地灭”这句话应该是时候让我学会如何去改变自己了

牌底差依然还是有机会拿到一副好牌只要耐心的等待，但是人品差的人永远都是那个某样了因为“江山易改本性难移”。。。。

你是我见到的不只牌底差而且不管等多久你还是等不到一副好牌因为你的品行应该不会该了。。。。

好累的一天

这两天我再度学会了忍让但是这个忍可以多久呢

到底这个忍让会让我撑多久我不知了

因为要是相同的事件再度发生我应该不会再忍了

次次以为平静下来了总是你们的出现变得不平静

那天晚上我算是心平气和了但是你们到底会不会想的

你们认为没有地位但当你们想要有地位时

是不是该学会如何让自己让别人服从

你们连最基本的让别人服从都无能何谓给人尊重

不是你们有道理我们也有自己的道理

只是看在你们是大的份上我不计较

但是已经得寸进尺了

要是再来一次闹我不会再给脸因为你们认为病猫好欺负

时候让你们知道不出声的人不代表好欺负

你们不是行而是我们不想撕破脸

不要再来耀武扬威想证明你们是最大

我会不客气了脸在那晚给足你们

再来一次我会做我该做的事了。。。。

UPSR 的成绩放榜

刚刚接到一个好消息

当初我教书的岁月带了两年的小瓜今年走入了考场

这群鼠宝宝是我在教书的生涯与他们相处最久

他们带给我的是欢乐与伤脑精的事

会带领他们那么久就是因为他们的级任老师患病逝世

我接了半年的代级任工作

这群瓜的脑子是精灵的顽皮捣蛋总是要惹我生气原因是看我好欺负鲁

一次发挥我的凶恶的一面才对我有所改观

这次的考试他们表现良好全部都考及格呢

而且班上老师眼中的两个才女考了全科A

不知觉中离开他们已经三年了当初离开这群瓜才三年级

如今已经完成他们的小六生涯

他们常常还是会联络我

岁月的飞逝让我不知觉中我还有好多事情在等着我去完成

恭喜玉芳和宝锦。。。加油了！！！

pray for my aunt

just chatt with my cousin

know that my aunt situation is not stable

now still waiting report for last medical check up

all of my family now are worries about her

now we only pray is good news come for her not like what malacca stupid doctor said

scare people and said chance lower must operation as soon as possible

patient's emotional when get a new have tumour already sadness still want scare patient that chance is low

how low he cant comfirm only want earn money

now dont care how much for the operation we only hope is m aunt is safety out from operation

children always worries about parents like parents always worries about their child

this aunt is treat me like her daughter, when at malacca studies she always went visit me and fetch me back

always like a mum tell me need take care myself at malacca after i come to kuala lumpur when i back she sure will ask me how my stuides at here

god, hope you hear my pray and blessing my aunt will safety in this time operation

朋友的关系才是完美

他们在那一天相遇，

当时，

他在追赶他的生活，

她在寻找她的自由，

他向左走，

她向右走，

我在某处徘徊，

某天，

我突然发现我们只可以是朋友。

就这样我们渐渐。。。。。。

一天，

他们在再次相遇，

他们有了爱，

但，

为何我心里有一些矛盾,

究竟是我还不能放下还是我还在在意他呢!

我找不到答案,

或许吧!

还好我已渐渐习惯了,

没有他的声音!

没有他的关怀,

没有他的一切一切………

我后悔选择放弃吗

到今天我才明白选择当一辈子的朋友才是最完美的

原来朋友才是最好

所以我一直没有后悔当初的决定

现在的我依然还是努力学习如何做到最简单

太多事情我不想再去想了

因为我在那样的生活世界不会是1+1 = 2

次次出现的总是2 选1 我还能说什么

说不怕那是骗人的

时间让我改变，现实使我不得不接受

过去的种种就让一切画上句号了

你的幸福你找到了这也是圆满的剧终

而我依然带着我的理想往前冲

我的责任依然在我的肩膀上

近来出了好多事情这就是我人生的另一个考验到来

我已习惯这样起起落落的生活

慢慢的适应了自己这样的生活

还好最后是一个这样的剧终

因为我害怕我伤了你

哈哈。。

我在想要是当初我那段伤心的日子

你我没再相遇

你早就放下了你我之间的一切

该早就看到你身边的这幸运女子了

只是你把她的关心当做是种习惯

还好最后你是用心去感受了这一切。。。

谢谢你用我的心法去感受

心是不会出卖感觉的忠实朋友

还好你不是固执的感谢天把你点醒了你的心

新的学期对我来说又是新的开始

而我的理想依然是当初的那个

只是贪心了要我的目标更高了

现在的你我是各自为自己的生活而奋了

依然是好朋友的你我加油了。。。

update 1st day in cyber

first day back cyber i cant sleep well

dont know is weather too hot or what

i am 3 am something just slept

morning go class really is wasted my time only half and hours class other classes all

cancell and i drop a subject too in 1st day... haha

exactly 1st day is quiet happy because end of the half and hours class me and some

friends went sing k at neway.... actually i dont want follow but they said too long not

meet me

2pm i back again to cyber cos 4 pm i got class but when reached at campus my

coursemate inform that lecturer MC so class cancelled ... haih, i am rush back but class cancelled

but never mind still get called from a freind go yamcha..... untill 6 pm i back to cyberia

rest a while then out dinner with mei teng and evelyn...

after dinner we still have plan.... hehehe, we back to campus again for meeting .....

11 pm we back from meeting... like that 1st day in cyber passed....

hehehe, today know a new friend but i forgot his name... when my friend introduce to

me that place too noise i cant hear clearly just said hai....

one month later

what happend one month i not update my blog:

1) is busy my exam

2) after exam i back suddenly because get called from my aunt at night after last paper exam no time to update

3) after back to my home dont have internet for me to write my blog

4) today back to cyber again because tommorrow start my university life again then now update my blog


what happend in my three week holiday:

1) first day in my hometown still felt happy that finally i am free from exam but unluckly after that a lot unhappy thing happend again

2)worries about my grandma third days at hometown i bought her to malacca make a medical check up get x ray from doctor at pantai just realise last time her fallen down left a big effect for her

3) back to hometown every day wake up 7:30 am prepared breakfast, noon coming preapred lunch then evening prepared dinner for my family same thing repeat and repeat every day for my holiday

4) got two more bad news last few days ago

i) my best friend grandma passed away on friday that was shock news for me, two year ago chinese new year i went visit the best friend his grandma still fun v us, last year becuase i got thing to do dont have time visit my best friend during last year cny

ii) my fifth aunt's kidney discovery have a 5 cm big tumour now waiting for operation but chance is 50:50 now wait for tomorrow last medical check up how was situation

5) good news i get that i passed all subject but i dont have mood to feel happy reason is i worries more than i happies

6) i cry again after i get the bad news about my fifth aunt dont know why the tear cant be control

7) now i wait my dad arrange a time to make a operation hope his wont stubborn again even is small operation

my wish now is hope all my family are in safety, happiness, and healthy.... hope god will help me blessing them.... i really scare some unhappy will happend again!!!