god bless my aunt
almost one month no back my hometown no back is because this smester class on fri until 5:30pmso if want back reach at hometown already very late then need trouble my dad go town fetch memy dad aslo not worry me average two week will back once time but this month i not back he aslo wont call me and ask me why....i miss the 1st week to malacca and cyber time that time i everyday i will get call from him... he really think his daugter me strength at outside today i get a message from my cousin said that my aunt check in to hospital because gastric this illness is terrible like monster and i hate it too lately i faced that problem, my doctor told me if i fixed take lunch and dinner time should be ok but for me is impossible that after come to studies because the timetable problem so he only give me gastric pill but i already one month no back so dont have any pill again he told me if really pain just take the pill if not better dont take he scare will get not effect if small matter i take itactually is pain and pain until cant sleep like few day ago i slept on 5am next day 9am class hope my aunt get well soon .... i aslo hope this week can pass soon then i can back to visit her miss my home....
100%的爱情
有时我会想是我对人的要求高还是一直以来对方根本不了解我要的是什么就算说出了会有用吗？？坦白只是把爱情画上句号我要求不是要100%的爱情因为我知道世上没有十全十美的人也许我认为简单但是在别人的眼里是个高难度爱情不是考试题就算有人为你拿了100%但是最后那个100%的人却不是你想找的人因为我寻求的是一种感觉是怎么样的感觉我不懂得怎样形容那份无法形容的感觉就是我眼中的100%的爱情。。。我明白了哪又怎样呢？？？我们都回到了属于自己原本的生活世界里。。。回到了原点的你现在过得好不好。。。没有了我这个负担你应该是过得比从前快乐。。。
爱在现实面前
歌手：阿木多少的挫折都不曾低头当你转身的时候却忍不住泪流多少的甜蜜都付东水流这杯回忆的苦酒将人伤透我不会责怪你永远的爱你只怪命运无情的捉弄当爱在现实面前原来那么脆弱而我们越是想要越要不到结果当爱在现实面前最后变成折磨就算拥有全世界没有你怎么过谁告诉我多少的挫折都不曾低头当你转身的时候却忍不住泪流多少的甜蜜都付东水流这杯回忆的苦酒将人伤透我不会责怪你永远的爱你只怪命运无情的捉弄当爱在现实面前原来那么脆弱而我们越是想要越要不到结果当爱在现实面前最后变成折磨就算拥有全世界没有你怎么过当爱在现实面前原来那么脆弱而我们越是想要越要不到结果当爱在现实面前最后变成折磨就算拥有全世界没有你怎么过谁告诉我就算拥有全世界没有你怎么过谁告诉我
停下脚步后的我
近来放慢自己的脚步在追寻这样的放慢我看到了很多事情这些事情是我曾经忽略的现在正努力补回去像是家人的关心但我不知这样停下后，我却在你的背后追得好疲惫真的好累了开始我以为自己能做到但是时间长后我发现你离我好远现在的我已经努力迈进你的脚步和你同行自从我放慢后无论我怎样再努力依然还是无法和你同步行这些日子的我真的好累疲惫在你背后追着的步伐今晚的我真的彻底觉得精疲力尽。。。你是否可以告诉我该怎么办？
异国恋
昨天和一个要好的朋友聊了一会我们聊了彼此的近况我们俩人会每隔一些日子都会找彼此闲聊的但昨晚一聊她遇上了很多问题之前的她是经历了几段感情每次都认为稳定的时候往往就是感情出了问题对方总是来个音讯全无的对待但这次遇上的是一个英国西班牙的混血儿对她疼爱有加但是妈妈反对得不到家人的支持觉得很没有安全感现在的她是很烦很烦不动要怎麽做她告诉我其实当爱情有了进展应该感开心但是这次的她却开心不起来因为遇上不是俩人的事而是家人的问题我除了站在一个朋友的立场分析给她知我真的什么都帮不到她因为她妈妈担心的是西方国家的人不可靠而且她还是家中唯一的一个女儿她妈妈更不希望它会离开她因为是几个时差的关系而且又不能常常见面爱情最后不会是两个人的事最后的决定权还是在于父母身上吧只有得到父母支持与祝福的感情那才是最完美的幸福最后的她会因为爱妈妈而放弃了自己的最爱因为她说世上唯一的真爱是来自父母的爱这份爱会跟随我们一辈子无论在哪里至于为感情而放弃父母爱的人是最笨的人爱情不会是我们的全部但亲情却是我们的全部我希望她得到自己的幸福但在同时我更担心她因为她这一路来遇上的问题还真多短短的四年内她真的经历了不少事情她的生活故事真的可以写出一本书了。。。21岁后的她应该看不到泪水了就算疲惫都要坚持走下去这就是她的人生靠自己。。。在朋友中她是属于坚强
第一份个人报告
今天算是松点了因为第一份报告总算完成忙了一整个星期写的东西就在今天结束了星期一要交了。。。谢谢他的推动力让我完成每次在我遇上困难时他的鼓励一定会到也不知什么时候开始也不晓得何时起每当遇上问题时总是会找他聊虽然他总是说功课上的问题他是帮不到我其实每次有他的支持我就会知道自己要怎样走下一步也许这就是谈得来的朋友吧不开心时找他难过时找他他总是会开导我其实我真的很羡慕他可以过得如此潇洒凡事遇上困难他都永远不担心总是迎刃而解。。。。。几天前赶着报告的夜晚那时已经是早上1点了他看到我失落的信息就打来陪我聊一聊当时是忙着想构思已经快要放弃了因为这份报告只有5%我问他要是他会完成吗他告诉我尽力就好不要给自己太大的压力今年他送我是我这23年来最特别的礼物他的礼物是陪我聊天这份礼物的定义是我遇上不开心难过的开心的都可以找他只要他不累他肯定会陪我谢谢你一直以来对我的鼓励虽然还有四个报告等着我。。。。
总是希望时间重来
当初那个简单的生活没了
当初那个平静的生活离开了我
当初那个迷糊的我也离开了
当初完全不在乎一切的我最后会因为失去而流下泪水
现在的我正努力找寻属于我自己的生活目标
未来的生活会是怎样依然还是一个问号
今天的我听着音乐听着听着又听到那首歌
听了有点伤感的感触
现在好像是带着回忆过生活
但那些回忆最后变成我的推动力
很可笑吧。。。我也不只是为了什么！！！
是牵挂？思念？我也不知道。。。。
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yesterday after rain
actaully really miracle happend in yesterday7pm something after rain really got sunshine appearat mid night i finally get call from him his support let me have motivation to go aheadhe say whatever that is student life believe yourself i can do itactually this few day i really feel gloomy becuase a stupid assignment but yesterday he told me a lot of about his thing i realise he really need a person to care him but i dont know what should i dohe is lonely even he always like dont care everything in past i dont know how he pass his life but now i will try my best as a friend to help himhope one day he will feel that actually this world still have a lot of thing need him maybe that is means of friendwhen facing problem need support each otherafter i slow down my step in my life i really realise a lot of thinglong time ago i really neglect a lot thing beside me now i try my best to remedy back what mistake i done because i dont want have any regret in my life
rain
rain at outside cry in heartdont know why today feel unhappinessnow my here situation is very peaceful and silentlook at sky thinking something again what i think i dont knowit is really after rain will come again sunshine actually i dont know about that because now already evening how will appear sunshine again....today weather is represent my mood sad and gloomy ....still a lot of assignment wait for metime already pass very soon by silent now already 6:35 pm half n day pass by classes time one assignment is start in progress haih... this assignment let me speechless becuase 5% need but need do a 5 page report...that is accouting student life????
幸福的定义
幸福这个字眼离我好远幸福的定义是什么我已不知了最近回想过去的点点滴滴有时真的会问自己我到底哪儿做错仁慈换回是一次次的伤害尊重让我一次次感觉自己像个傻瓜昨晚晚餐后和一个好久不见的好朋友聊了很多她告诉我在爱情世界中扮演好人的那个往往都是伤得最深的那个当初受伤了一次应该有所警觉了吧为何这次会让自己再陷入一样的状态我告诉她我也很想知道到底自己是怎么了但一直都找不到那个答案她要我问自己的心中是怎么想那就是答案。。。。心中想什么那也不会如愿了很多事就像这个朋友说的过去已经过去了结束只是让自己有个新开始。。。。接着的幸福会什么我也不想懂得了因为我遇见的爱是自私而不是无私爱真的让我改变了很多看法还是那句是你的就是你的不是你的就不是你的很多时候看了太多东西在不知觉中又再成长教会了我该珍惜的东西就要趁现在
内疚
觉得内疚的一天 我也许真的不适合感情生活了在这个游戏中我一直都没有做好自己的角色不是让人伤害就是伤害人开始觉得这样的东西不适合我感情的生活现在给我的是那么虚假你爱的那个不爱你爱你的那个却不是你爱的而总是把他伤了再伤今晚人静时当所有人在忙着自己的事时我在角落边一个人沉静的思考问自己是不是可以再去爱我问了自己的心好几次答案还是一样这样的感觉我找不到了我不知怎么了今天我再伤了他。。。对不起
all 38 friends return back to their position
my 38 friends all back to local universityafter i back from my holidaythey always complaint very bored at hometown because i left before thier holidaywhen i back to cyber they still have one more month holiday to enjoybut they all told me sometime really envy me becuase my holiday short and three times in a yeareven is bored holiday for them but finally they all back to university for new smesternow is our time to seeking our dream againnext time meet is need wait for chinese new year 2009hehehe, we already promise each other how busy we are need out gathering for CNY 2009last year CNY i suddenly get order from my uncle need attend house gathering so i absent last year friends gathering time pass very fast we this gang 38 friends already know each other 10 years from primary school to secondary school actually lower and upper 6 i studies together with them but dont know why i quit from 6 life go be temporary teacher 2 year..... hehehe, they all thought i will continue teaching life but when four year ago i told them i resign the job they all a bit heartattact and at last return back studies life my life always go around roundabout pass few aroung but at last everything will return back to start point maybe that is my lifei lives in earth its is round so everything is possible to return back but timing and place and people change by time only is new start for whose before meet tired return for rest a while then new start for them for seeking new life....lately i almost slow down my step for seeking what i want ... hope now what i do for few year later i wont feel regret and will get a happiness ending for my life....not still in roundabout turn and turn again... now for me everything is important after happend all these problem....
a talk
long time no talk each other today have some free time i talk with him maybe i want to keep the friendship so i try to contact him backafter something happend on me and himhe told me really no easy and unrealised he already use use three years wait someone afternoon took lunch with my hsemate he aslo told me no easy for a people use three year for wait a people my housemate said these three year wait he do what can he do for herlike him do something for me i appreciate it but how come i cant accept himhe told me what he can do within these few year already donehe dont know he really cant compare the people inside my hearthe ask me is it a fate for him and me that is fate something pass already pass only return time back that inside my world without him appear in my life i think i cant do that at last i change because him i think i wont walk in relationship anymore at last because him i start my relationship after three year later....actually i aslo dont know why after meet him i will change ... that is love???love is love without reason until today i aslo cant get reason....like until today i aslo cant answer the friend even he do best how i cant accept him at last still want maintain friendship is it reason :friend is forever but lover cant be foreverfew year later what will happend on me??it is will like JJ and JIN SHA sing the song " stupid" i think will like GIGI LEONG sing one " yuan lai ai qing na me shang"these two song represent my situation now....
tonight
silent night half of housemate not aroundcool wind night like want rain but not because the weather very hot nowlately cyberjaya weather very very hotnow thinking with somethingwhat i think i dont know i hope all that only dream for me but that is fact i dont have choose except accept all that i really dont know what should i do better i escape what already happend in my life again everything gone everything change everything belong now like very fakeif i not care more like next second will leave from me dont know why tonight i am so scare and scare like something will happendi hope wont some unhappy thing happend againlife is good thing wont happend to good peoplebut bad thing will always on good people is it yet reach time to let good people enjoy of life or ....... tired already 12:20 am is time for me go sleeplately after i wake up i wait for next coming morningi really hope time can pass as soon as possible
let go
let go something at last i gain back something maybe lately happend a lot of thing i need time to let myself to rest a while a lot of thing i dun want to carenow my eyes is one close one open to see thingmaybe like that i will more nature to treat my life only like that i can blur see this beautiful worldwhen open two eyes will see clearly thing only let me feel tired and unhappyclose eye in keep unhappy thing open eye is seeking for wonderful life hehehe.... assignment coming soon...haih!!!student busy life coming soon
今天
好久没看朋友的部落格今天闲着所以看完所有有部落格的朋友心情小天地看到一些朋友有快乐的心情一些好像好久都没有update他们的blog 一些这些日子都好忙。。。但看到一个朋友时我发现了误会不解释最后会变失去她曾经与我很好很要好但是这些日子我们经历一些事情没有好好的去谈谈在她的部落格里我看到是无奈也不懂怎样去形容当时在看的心情以为她很了解我有些事情不用说出口她会明白就因为没说出口造成了一个这么大的误会原来最后她是不了解我但我不怪她因为我自认自己有错但一个朋友说应该是双方的错一个以为她了解所以很多事情都不讲我不讲她就以为是我的问题只是事情的发生我有很多事情都不便多谈太多事是想说和她分享但是最后还没说出口就像周杰伦的《开不了口>只是她不明白就这样误解了。。。。今天的心情很差因为我还是找不到公司interview这次的assignment又是找公司interview真希望接着受到mail会有公司显出他们爱心的手助我一臂之力。。。。。
你有多了解你的朋友
从来不会是个刻意去结交很多朋友的人，朋友惟独只有知己，我可以看清你，你也可以看清我。只有如此的接触，交流才不会出现问题。朋友多了，朋友的界限会模糊，而失去对真正朋友的判定。不会和自我世界相冲突的朋友，才会是朋友，即使粘着，懒着，都是朋友的一种表现。因为这就是我的世界，只是因为是你，惟独是你，才会在你面前表现出如此的我。如果你能理解，就笑笑接受，你也应该表现出真实的你，因为我们是朋友，不要因为我的行为，而让你丧失自我世界的原则。真实的我们会有矛盾，却不会让矛盾升华为一种冲突，这就需要各自的谅解。只有如此才会有友情。可以互相生气，赌气，但是平静过后，我们仍旧可以笑笑，还是继续以往的生活。大千世界，茫茫人海，与你擦肩而过的人很多，和你相识的人也是不计其数。唯有有血缘关系的亲人就是屈指可数那么几个，除了亲人之外，还有另外一种人，这种人尽管没有血缘关系，但他像亲人一样关心你、爱护你、帮助你，在乎你，这种人就是朋友。朋友就是你高兴时想见的人，烦恼时想找的人，得到对方帮助时不用说谢谢的人，打扰了不用说对不起的人，高升了不必改变称呼的人。朋友是可以一起打着伞在雨中漫步，是可以一起在海边沙滩上打个滚儿，是可以一起沉溺于某种音乐遐思，是可以一起徘徊于书海畅游，朋友是有悲伤陪你一起掉眼泪，有欢乐和你一起傻傻的笑…… 不会和解的人，害怕表达对朋友的意见，结果纵容了朋友的缺点，这样维持的友谊是不牢靠的。总有一天会维持不下去。而恰恰是不怕冲突的人，及时把不满表达出来，通过交流解决了朋友间的不和谐，才会有真正长久的友谊也许这样说是没错，但真正懂你的人会有几人呢？要是遇上了那也是生活上的另一个幸福。。。。在朋友的眼中也许我是怪人一个那是对我不了解也许我的性格难以捉摸
这就是双子朋友的个性吧！！！
说我是怪人的一群现在却是我最好的一群38 朋友鲁
